Wondering if your feelings towards your therapist is actually transference? Find several examples in these transference stories.
Hi, I'm a psychotherapist/psychologist of 20 years. This is Part 2 of a 3-article series on transference.
Want a quick summary of transference from a developmental and evolutionary perspective?
Check out the top of the 1st article where I explain what transference is.
Transference: short list examples
I love my therapist. It feels so real I fantasize that being with him would mean my life would finally be complete. (Jennie's example)
I'm in love with my therapist. I want to make love to her and think about it all the time.
Idealized Mother Transference
Idealized Father Transference
My therapist is like a father I never had. He's so strong and sure of himself. I want to absorb all his goodness.
My therapist is so cold and distant. I don't think she cares at all. I'm just a number to her. (Tanya's example)
How to read this article
This is Part-2 of a 3-Part article (See links to other articles below).
You're just curious - maybe a new therapy client - wondering if you're dealing with transference?
- Feel free to skim - jump around or not.
- Below each sub-heading is a paragraph with larger font size - you may want to just read those to quickly get the gist of the 3 articles.
- Identify your own transference in the Comments below each article with meaty responses from yours truly.
You're definitely working through transference however it's getting out of hand and you don't know what to do.
- You already know about transference - get familiar with my developmental approach (top part of 1st article).
- Skim this article and jump to Part 3. Note the Brain Facts.
- Once you've grasped the model I propose, pay particular attention to the section, 'How to stop transference'.
You're so into your transference you want to know everything about it or you're a therapist and want to know how to help your client.
- Read everything in Parts 1-3 plus the "extra credit" information in the Brain Facts section.
By: Psychologist Dr. Susan LaCombe
Updated: March 15, 2019
Jennie was feeling desperate. She hadn’t bargained on therapy creating more problems than she had when she began. At times it was all she thought about, and she didn't think she could hold it in any longer.
Her husband of 20 years found her preoccupation with therapy a little confusing - yesterday he remarked offhandedly that he didn’t see the need for her to get dressed up before her appointments.
She knew it wasn’t right to keep him in the dark - she was so embarrassed.
That wasn’t the tough part though.
The truth was that she was in love with someone else - someone she couldn’t have. Someone she couldn't stop fantasizing about.
And things were getting out of hand.
Last night she couldn’t sleep and found herself doing something she wasn’t proud of…she Googled him. Now she knows where he lives, that he has a wife and two kids etc. Though she felt like a stalker, she hoped that would be the end of it.
But knowing about his private life didn’t help - it didn’t dampen her feelings for him one bit. And the thing is, she hasn’t even told him how she feels. She’s afraid he’ll refer her to someone else.
"He’s such a softie..even with his big belly..
I want him to hold me so badly."
. . . the story continues . . .
Jennie’s not aware that that experiencing feelings of attraction is not unusual in therapy. Called 'transference', it encompasses pretty much any feelings that get stirred up regarding your therapist.
Jennie's also in luck because there's a good chance her therapist will be prepared to work with her on the transference.
It didn't used to be the case.
In traditional psychotherapies many clients suffering from transference had no idea what was really going on. Unless or until they finally disclosed these feelings to their therapist (or a trusted friend) they were effectively on their own.
And even if they chose to bring the subject up in therapy, they often had a hard time getting a straight answer.
You see, the profession harbored a cool (by today's standards), highly analytical "left brain" bias**. The equal importance of the right brain and nervous system had not yet been added to the profession's theoretical toolbox, let alone therapists' clinical training.
Indeed, typical psychoanalytical approaches advised the therapist to say as little as possible about transference (to avoid pulling the client out of the process).
In fact, psychoanalysts were discouraged from saying anything at all, because their was to heighten the transference. This was to make it easier for both the therapist and client to see it.
The crucial limitation to this approach was its insistence on intellectual analysis of the transference. The client was supposed to logically "think through" the experience and see the transference for what it was.
Making himself or herself emotionally available was the farthest thing from the therapist's mind, and the idea to be in resonance with the client's nervous system was a development still years in the future.
As you can imagine, this left clients helplessly drowning in early undefended child-like states with no guidance how to save themselves.
The solution back then was simple...see your therapist more often...maybe twice a week for starters, sometimes for years on end.
Dependency on your therapist is scary for various reasons
Now I sincerely believe that in many cases this vulnerability was not taken advantage of. *
For many clients, where I feel the real risk is finding yourself somewhere in-between.
That is, you're not with a therapist who's out to take advantage of you nor are you with a therapist that's well versed in dealing with transference.
- For instance, imagine being with a therapist who is 'fanning the flames' of their own ego by allowing the transference to continue without guiding you through it.
- Or possibly an incompetent therapist who tells you to set this "transference business" aside - including all the feelings associated with it - and get down to the business of why you initially came to therapy.
As you might guess, this latter scenario is modeling "there's an elephant in the room and we won't speak about it" mentality.
Not to mention the lost opportunity.
*The reality though is that boundary violations do continue. I know because myShrink members continue to write me about them. For many these clients, the transgression continues to haunt them years later.
Dependency is scary, period.
Even if the therapist is top notch, from the client's perspective dependency is frightening. (See Debra and others)
This is why classic psychoanalysts were required to undergo their own personal therapy as part of their training.
And while I personally don't align myself with these methods (I've used other solutions for transference), they were right that facing and processing your transference paid huge therapeutic benefits.
Yet for years transference has been shrouded in mystery.
Only recently has the subject been openly discussed and recognized by the wider mental health community as a normal, instrumental part of therapy.
In fact, the Internet has been godsend in this regard. Folks in therapy can now connect with others going through the same process.
Even so, most of those going into therapy have no idea that transference can emerge without warning.
(Which is one of the reasons I teach the use of tools to help deal with these fears.)
Is transference a good thing?
Transference can completely transform how you feel about yourself because it's often rooted in our earliest, often pre-verbal, emotional development.
Transference works when you ...
- Have the personal resources to continue your therapy;
- Have a therapist who seems attuned to you;
- Have a therapist that makes you feel safe, and,
- You know how to make the most of your experience . . .
I'd call it the best kept secret of therapy!
That means, resolving your transference majorly transform how you experience yourself - for the good.
It draws it power from the fact that it enables you to access an area of the brain that's hard to get at through to talk therapy alone.
Some remain in their transference - forever!
Key point: Successful resolution of a transference requires key conditions being met, the most important being the interactive skills of an attuned therapist.
What kinds of changes can you expect?
Well, transference is triggered by the emotional drive to belong and feel whole, and that can cover a lot of ground.
This is why resolving the transference can benefit you tremendously if you feel less worthy than others, less emotionally capable, or less entitled to have what you want or need.
I know you might not be there yet . . . but just imagine how your life would change if you could experience the world as confidently as you see others experiencing it.
More transference examples
As mentioned, transference occurs when you unconsciously 'transfer' (attribute), the feelings, memories and desires you experienced in your early important relationships to your therapist.
Therapy heightens this unconscious propensity for bringing your feelings into the therapeutic relationship.
Feelings are intensified because therapy happens privately, within strict personal boundaries, and where the conversation is typically one way.
You see, there are no distractions to dilute how you experience your therapist. Indeed, it can feel as though your feelings are caused by the therapist.
These transference feelings can take many forms apart from a romantic or erotic attraction. For example, you might feel as dependent as a child looking forward to seeing your Mom).
Seeing your therapist like a Mom
That’s how Richard feels towards his therapist, she's like a mother to him. He loves going to his therapy sessions. It’s like going back to a home he never had.
Her office even has a smell that he can detect just walking down the hall towards her door.
He yearns to be hugged by her but he’s afraid she’ll think it odd if he asks.
The hardest time is the end of a session, knowing it’s a whole week before he'll see her again.
Seeing your therapist as cold and distant
Tanya is far from feeling attracted. In fact, she’s considering leaving therapy altogether . . . for many reasons.
For one, she finds her therapist cold and distant. For another he doesn’t always answers her questions, and he then asks why she wants to know.
And she hates when he writes his notes when she’s talking.
The worst is that she distrusts his sincerity when he says he cares about her well-being. She had no idea that she would develop such a strong reaction.
In her mind, she has countless arguments with him - that she never brings to light.
You see, she’s done enough research to know that not all therapists understand transference (or can handle it).
She wonders whether her feelings are coming from transference or whether this guy’s just not emotionally open.
It’s so hard to tell.
Ironically, transference had become a problem in itself, in addition to her other issues.
Tanya has an inkling it’s related to feelings for her father, whom she found overbearing.
But if she terminates her therapy she’ll probably never find out.
Indeed, for many folks it’s only after they successfully resolve their transference feelings (and experience themselves in new ways) that they really grasp the power of it.
So Tanya’s wondering how “working through transference” will help her when her therapist shares so little emotionally.
To complicate the situation, she also knows that not everyone gets through their transference successfully.
For a lucid discussion on identifying transference and countertransference apart from the reality of the context enjoy reading:
Robert King and Tom O'Brien, Transference and Countertransference: Opportunities and risks as two constructs migrate beyond their psychoanalytic homeland. PSYCHOTHERAPY IN AUSTRALIA • VOL 17 NO 4 • AUGUST 2011
"There may well be an element of transference in every emotional response. However, the size of that element is often difficult to determine." [Italics added] pg. 14
Debra, Traverse City, USA
Became dependent on my therapist so quickly
I find transference frightening! I don't know how I can become so dependent on a therapist, so quickly! I count the days, even hours until I can see him and talk about my issues...it scares me!
You're absolutely right Debra . . . transference can be very scary. It's good to hear you have that an awareness of it. I think that's half the work.
The kinda cool part about it too is that if this is happening with your therapist, you can be almost assured that the same dynamic is playing a role in your life . . . even in ways you might not imagine at this point . . .what I mean is, won't it be great when it's no longer interfering with your life.
That's certainly been my experience. I've been quite surprised--and pleased--with the changes I've made. I could never have predicted them based on the work I did.
So, I wish the same success for you.
All the best,
Attachment Girl, The Psych Cafe
I struggle with feeling dependent on my therapist.
I'm another one struggling with an intense transference relationship, but am grateful that my therapist and I have been really open about it. While keeping very safe boundaries in place, he has been open to hearing about all my feelings and working it through. All that said, it can be incredibly painful and frustrating.
I know one thing that I have struggled with the most is feeling like I am so dependent on my therapist. There is a book that has really helped me understand what is going on in the relationship and the way in which it is healing that I would like to recommend for anyone dealing with this. the book is The General Theory of Love by Thomas Lewis.
Thanks Attachment Girl for sharing this and your book suggestion. I took a boo at the book and as I was skimming through, thought it looked pretty good. In fact, I will put it forward as a selection for my study group.
I stumbled upon a quote from the book..."When an emotional chord is struck, it stirs to life memories of the same feeling." (pg. 130) It seemed like a good match for transference.
The quote made me think about boundaries and I'm so glad you referred to them. In my view, good boundaries are essential for the full working through of transference reactions.
Not every one might appreciate the idea around boundaries in the context of understanding transference, so let me briefly add this. When a therapist recognizes that the client's anger is coming from another place he or she does not take it personally...and is able to see it for what it is...while maintaining a solid connection. This is how boundaries are maintained and the healing occurs.
In other words, the brain is having a new experience.
You had mentioned struggling with feelings related to the dependency on your therapist. I can understand that, in a word, you've done this before (in infancy) and it didn't quite work out...so it makes it all the more scary today.
As you have probably read, if we don't have a chance as an infant to feel secure and safe with our caregiver then in therapy we will revisit our yearning to feel dependent upon our therapist.
In other words, "leaning on" our therapist is how we heal.
As you proceed in therapy, hopefully you will discover that it is through this process you become more fully who you are. And, just like an infant, when you get enough of your needs met, you will flourish!
All the best on your journey,
P.S. the "leaning on" phrase came from a book recommended to me by Dr. Carole called Lean on Me by Marion Solomon. (The same author who co-wrote 'Parenting from the Inside Out'.
I received a replay from Attachment Girl and here's what she said:
Shrinklady, Thanks so much, that all made a lot of sense. And thank you so much for the book recommendation. I read Parenting from the Inside Out which my therapist recommended when I asked for a book on attachment and it had an incredible impact on me. I will definitely be reading this one.
I hope your study group enjoys A General Theory of Love. My therapist actually read it after I had told him about it and we've discussed it extensively as it has really resonated with the work we're doing. Although, he did say he was very bummed out while reading it because there was another book he didn't get to write. : )
Thank you so much for being such a help on my journey.
Just Me, Michigan, USA
Love my therapist like a Mom
I have been in therapy for just over two years and I began to notice transference feelings for my therapist after the first 4 months. It started as sexual attraction which threw me for a loop because I am a happily married hetero-sexual female and my therapist is also female.
I became distraught in thinking that something is terribly wrong with me, that if I confessed my horrible feelings for her that she would find me disgusting and terminate my therapy (abondon me). I spent many painstaking hours researching this phenomenon until I finally found the courage to confront my therapist. (The book "In Session" by Deborah Lott was invaluable for me)
I was relieved to find out this was normal and that she did not find me disgusting and absolutely would never abandon me. She has remained a stable force in my life and two years later after working through multiple traumas I am ever more attached to her maternally. I still have a physical attraction, but most of my feelings are clearly my little girl-self desiring her to mother and nurture me.
I confessed to her recently that sometimes I wish that she was my mother (although impossible because she is only 10-12 years older than me.) While I am still greatly uncomfortable with my childish longings and feelings for her I know that expressing myself is always healing. But I still find it frightening. I still feel that there is something wrong with me and that she will finally get so frustrated with me and give up saying "Oh THAT again." And I know better!
Sometimes I find myself crying because I miss her so much between sessions and because she cannot be my mother. Then I feel so foolish for having these thoughts even though I intellectually get why I do. I even feel obsessed with wanting to know more about her even though she is not rigid about sharing some info about herself. She keeps good boundaries and yet is very authentic and genuine. I feel lucky to have her as my therapist but I am still struggling with my overwhelming attachment to her and still afraid to fully expose myself.
Reading your site and Robin Shapiros website gives me a feeling that I am not alone and that letting it all out is exactly what I need to do. It feels so BIG inside of me, but I am still afraid to let it all out and I am not always certain what all of it really is. Sometimes I wish she would just say "I know you're feeling something so just spill it." But she is ever patient waiting for me to work up the nerve to do so on my own.
She has told me that she desires for me to be able to finally express my needs and yet I resist. Partly because I know she can't really meet my needs. She cannot magically become my mother, she cannot hold me and let me cry like a child in her arms, she cannot love me the way I want her to love me. I want her to tell me that i am important and lovable to her, and that she thinks I am intelligent, but she seems more inclined for me to adopt those beliefs on my own.
Would it hurt for her to say those things to me?
In regards to my wanting to know more about her I find myself seeking info on the Internet about her desiring to find the slightest tid-bit then feeling guilty if I learn something she may not want for me to know. This is all so hard to express let alone deal with. I hope that I make some sense. I can't really tell myself. Thank you
Hello Just Me, I was really moved by your story. It sounds as if you're on the right track...slowly, ever so gently, opening up and tapping into your unmet needs. I'm impressed how hard you are working to understand what's going on for you.
You may already be aware that the tears for your therapist are no doubt stemming from earlier losses. Your therapist has helped you to access these yearnings. And, now she can help you heal through the feelings that are attached to her.
It is perfectly natural for you to be thinking of her after your sessions and to have a desire to be with her. Missing your therapist is predictable. She is giving you what you didn't get in your early years . . . unconditional love. Your mind will take you there whenever you need to be supported. I would encourage you to receive the memory of her as you need to. Try not to hold back or judge your thoughts and feelings. This is your body mind trying to heal.
Eventually, that little girl will have enough love so she can grow up.
Clients have told me that the most pivotal times in therapy were when I shared with them how I felt about them. These honest heartfelt moments helped them to deeply heal.
As I say the words they need, I encourage them to receive it as much as possible. They have told me that they remember these times for when they are feeling down and lonely. (We do the same thing when we think of a friend during difficult times.)
In the abscence of hearing the words you need from your therapist, I suggest that you imagine her saying those things and then take a long moment to receive it and really take it in.
Allow the image of her love and her words to wash over you. I think the more you allow yourself this comfort, the less compelled you will feel to seek out information about her and the greater your healing.
All the best,
I received this wonderful update from Just Me after posting my reply.
Thank you Shrinklady! Your words are very kind and soothing. This has been a long hard journey at times, but the change/metamorphosis has been so healing. I receive so many comments from people about something being different about me. (For the better.) It has been a lot of hard work and it is so worth it. I have worked through multiple traumas and my T says that my attachment is my BIG trauma. But I am gaining exposure and she has been wonderful about it.
I like how you related that you say the words your clients need to hear. My T has dropped some hints, but it seems as though she wants me to pick it up by experiencing and not just hearing, but I long to hear it. I really do. Maybe I should tell her that. Its Funny how you suggested that I imagine her saying the words I need to hear, I do that all the time. But I think I can do that effectively because I also do get a sense that there is a love or affection there on her part.
I want to tell you that I really appreciate how you take the time to reflect on and to respond to so many posts despite your busy schedule as a Therapist. Hearing a Therapist’s side of the relationship is touching. I hope you can continue to be available.
Much heartfelt thanks!
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